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3rd-Mar-2012 04:52 pm - oops!
I like... never post here anymore :P
Maybe I might start blogging again in the future, but I just don't have the energies to, and have nothing to say! D:
9th-Jun-2011 09:42 am - Random art junk.

Wizened


I have this thing when creating any sort of character for an RPG. They have to have the most shittyest life ever, or they had everything, then lost everything so they have to rebuild it and crawl all the way back to the top again. Sometimes they achieve it, or sometimes they die. It's to the point where the GM tells me: "It's a horrible day for you, if you are one of Jenny's characters." So Of course I am going to play the ultimate GM screw class in World of Darkness system: Changeling.


Hurhurhurhurrr.

5th-Jun-2011 02:46 pm - Chocolate Dragon

Wants to keeeees you!


nomnom


I had this thing sitting on my computer for YEARS. Was cleaning out the old computer and decided to post it.

4th-Jun-2011 08:15 pm - Some art junk.

Sammie's, mine, and GM's characters for an RPG. Rough random sketchbook doodleeezz. I think I see a cameo from Pusheen!




I hate how it's always AFTER you post you notice all the mistakes. Hurrr. OHWHELL.

31st-May-2011 11:48 am - Whut.
I am strangely fascinated by this song. Also I got blood work today! Weeee.
29th-May-2011 10:23 am - I still draw.
I still draw, but not all the time anymore and I end up just not showing anyone-- or have been way to lazy to scan it in.


This pic is from last yearish? I have 2 moleskine full of scketchbooks full of drawings like this of just weird shit and concepts for the newest project of mine I have been working on since last year, those of which I won't reveal until the project is actually up and running.





These are the ones I have deemed 'safe to show.' I have this paranoia that immediately after I tell someone about the project... it somehow gets known by someone way more awesome than myself. This is when they immediately begin working on it, so in my mind it's always a race to get things out there before that figment of my imagination does. I know it's stupid and my ideas are completely not worth stealing, but I hate it when people tell me I have ripped off an idea when I posted/worked on the idea years before it come into fruition :|
28th-May-2011 02:42 pm - Writing Woes.
I have written a lot of short stories, most of which the world shall never see, and most of which I won't count as writing because the bulk of my prose took place in my teens.
And lets face it, we never make anything remotely good in our teen-years. I wouldn't even consider mine to be a stepping stone-- unless it was to step off a cliff; the Mary Su-niverses that I had created would make even the most steadfast 'I love life!' cliche archetypes make the jump.

I wrote a lot in high-school, but then stopped because I found the more people I let in on the project for brainstorming, the more I was criticized on how I worked by outsiders. One person even refused to speak to me because I got a higher mark than them on a creative writing assignment. I really should have just took my fathers advice: "What? Well it's none of their goddamned business what you do!" but the Pandora's box of anxiety was already opened and it affected my work, and then when TZH webcomic started all my other writing projects stopped.

Years later I am picking it up again for my latest project, because, well, I gotta. Telling story's is not only one of my pastimes, but it's my job. Which makes things all the more difficult.
I feel like I can't write anymore. I'll look at my journals in the past and go 'wow I wrote that? I'm really out of practice.' I haven't written in ages, only scripts for TZH, and I am not saying that comics have crippled my ability to tell a good story, it's more like, I haven't told another story in so long that I am really REALLY out of practice, and out of ideas.

Stress is most likely a contributing factor. Money has been tight, and I no longer have a place of solitude where I can be alone and work, there are always some-sort of interruption that pulls me away, or distracts me, even if I am in-front of the screen and there is complete silence.

I can't think of good endings, either, which has been my biggest and latest issue thusfar. I have been stuck on endings for TZH and the other project for years. I know what happens at the VERY end, but I don't know how to get to the part before it, the climax? 'The fight or car chase scene?' Yeah, I find that I need to know the ending to start the groundwork, or else I'm completely lost. I have written as far as I can for both, but now I find myself somewhat stuck, again.

I have been making an effort to get off my pity-party-ass and get 'er done, and I have found a program called Scrivener, and if you haven't heard it's the best thing for writing since ever, and it has completely streamlined how I work. It's for the Mac but there is a beta version for Windows.


Yeah, if you are a writer I seriously suggest checking this program out. It's only $45 bucks, so that is an amazing. Hopefully it's the kick in the pants I need to get everything going again, but we'll see.
26th-May-2011 08:41 pm - My tweets
25th-May-2011 02:35 pm - My tweets
  • Wed, 08:49: I hope everyone is okay! Those Tornadoes yesterday were pretty terrifying :(
  • Wed, 11:00: Having all winter clothes in 90 degree weather really sucks. :|
  • Wed, 12:47: Ugh I hate not being able to tell people how I feel.
  • Wed, 12:55: I am now stuck in the hamster wheel of depression/anxiety. That's about the closest way I can describe how I feel without being dramatic.
  • Wed, 12:56: Everyone loves hamsters!
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